i had a very difficult time getting my medication. 😑😖 this is how my week started.

the doctor was super super super slow at refilling my medicine. I waited pretty much all afternoon for him to refill it. 🙃 but i am glad i finally got my medicine.

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i decided to redesign my fursona. 👩🏿‍🎨🦨

i feel live ive grown and changed since my first fursona design. so i decided to change it. 

 

i also decided to change the type of skunk my fursona is. zie went from being a striped skunk to being a pygmy spotted skunk. i really like this change.

i got to attend my first Sustaining International Sisters(SIS) meeting!

it was also SIS’s 6th birthday. i was invited by Ruth and Canaan to come. they are in charge of the group.

 

so what is SIS? SIS is a group of international women. they meet once a month to do interplay. interplay is kinda like improv except it doesn’t have to be funny. it is a lot of movement of the body, feeding off of each others emotions, and producing great energy for each other. there is also lots of dancing and movement of the soul.

 

it is super fun and i am so glad i got to attend. we had an amazing potluck afterwards. the food was so good! I met women from so many different cultures, mainly turkish women.

i realized quite a bit upon leaving my SIS meeting. 🤔

i grew up in an international household. because of this and because i ended up getting a large scar on my forehead due to a car wreck, i got bullied all the time in school. i often felt like i didn’t belong anywhere and that no one liked me.

 

there were several periods of my life where i had no idea who i was because i was constantly being told i didn’t belong there. no matter how hard i tried, i was always told i wasnt black enough to hangout with the black kids and i was too black to hangout with the white kids. this lead to me being very lonely and i completely shut down year after year in school.

 

SIS made me feel like i belonged because i was around other people from different countries. i felt very much alone as a kid. I eventually stopped talking to people due to the bullying i was constantly receiving. 

 

i internalized being told i dont belong in a black space. my response to it is to very seldom interact with the black community. it isnt the best response, but i always worry someone from the community will tell me i dont belong, so i keep my distance to defend zieself. instead, i interact more with multicultural groups. 

 

being at SIS has helped me to acknowledge several issues ive had growing up. it has made me want to embrace who i am. there is a difference between an african american and being a child of someone born in a country in africa. 

 

back in 2021, i decided to no longer reject my nigerian heritage. i proudly embrace it now. it felt great to be apart of people who accept me as i am and who dont stigmatize me because of the things i like or how i look. 

 

it felt like i found my people because people dont really understand what immigrants face when they enter the US. my lived experience is very different from someone with two parents born and raised in the US because one of my parents is an immigrant. 

 

there is nothing wrong with me. i belong in this world. i am allowed to take up space.

i got some presents during the SIS meeting! 🎊 🎁

i got a beautiful tote bag, some handmade soap that smells good, a membership bag to pass onto another sister, and beautiful pink bandana with the SIS logo on it. i feel so special. i am very happy i got to be apart of this event.

i did a lot of sketches while waiting for the doctor to refill my medication.

these are the sketches i made while waiting for the doctor. i also did a sketch or two while waiting for my therapist a few days later. ✏️😍

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